Silent Winds

  There’s a moon, up in the sky. She is glowing bright up in the high. She comes and goes, Leaves a marks for those, Where love has rose. The mystical clouds crawl behind her, They grab her beautiful gown, And they go around her to frown. She opens her book of enchantment, She reads them out, But some just get fainted. She crawls here and there, In search of us everywhere, And when she finds us, She doesn’t leave us mellow anywhere. London, Paris, New York, Millan- Or a village full of people with lots of plans, She will go and make them say- “Yes I can”.   Its time to go, says the moon, She will be back tomorrow, She will be back to inspire us, But a feeling of emptiness arises, Gently taking us back to slumber, She hides again in the trees.

  There is a man- On a cross. Left in the corn field- To rot. Red skies, purple trees- And no one to see. Once a king, Now crucified along with his dreams.   Ravens are his company, Nipping out every day- A piece of him now and then- And waiting for his end.   Once a king- Now a scarecrow. People left him- To be. People forgot him- To be. He has cancer- Leave him be. He is rotting- Hang him to the tree.

  Carry me back to- Your womb. I don’t want to see- This doom. I’ve lost enough- When I see this room!   I’ve made a room to carry you In my heart. I’ve built with sticks and bones In my heart. I’ve waited, I’ve waited In my heart. But now I’m lost- Lost in the dark!   How much can I suffer- When there’s no place to rest! How much should I cry- When the tears have run dry! How old do I have to be- When there isn’t any more to be!   So, carry me back to the womb, I think that’s where I’ll build my tomb.

    What if you stayed One last time? What if you never left Before all is gone?   What if you found a way- to come back to my room today? What if you found a way- Find where I am always there?   What if we hide- Really, right now, Turn off the lights- So they know we’re here- But not in fear? Only love and love- They won’t find us- Anywhere?   You tried, you gave all your life, I saw your eternal sunshine. But you lost the ways, Your memories lost all of it right there. You jumped, to hold me- All turned to dust, and faded in tears.   And a sudden ‘wait’!   We enjoyed- And waited to see the end.

  God, I’ve come undone! Please light up the sun, Give me another dawn.   Show me the way, To the stars that remain, Where angels run, Darkness evades, The place safe again!   The ashes from the Eden, The tears of the lagoons, The paradise of yours- Let me save them, God, I’m undone!   Show me a sign, Where the moon still shines. Let me be there, Where I still see fear. Let me be there- To save them from tears.   Let me be their saviour, Let me save them again.

  Some say- We’re a gift of three. But I feel so alone; And I’m gonna end up as those bones.   To live is to die; To love, we cry- And we do it all alone. But I feel- I’m gonna end up as those bones.   I lay dead under the bed, Life lost under the red. I feel so alone, Now I am them bones.

  “Do you have something- Something to say?” The judge says aloud.   I take a stroll through my mind To find words to make it sound.   “Judge”, I say, overtone in grey, “I have a song to sing before they send me away.”   In a room where I belong, In a tomb I’ll be gone, In blossoms flowers to bloom, In a womb I no longer face my dooms.   In memories of them- How I’ve haunted them. Their eyes flush- A fiery rush- To see me gone- Before it’s dawn.   Lay as I have laid, Will they haunt me in my bed? Will no one cry on top of my grave? Will it be so cold- Will I turn old? I will be gone, I will hunt no more, I will be free- Resting in the below.   Forgive me not- For I have sinned. Forgive me not- It’ll be a regret of dreams.

  It’s an oasis, they said; If you know where to touch- You might find gold.   If you touch the land; If you feel the sky; If you dance in the rain; If you surf in the waves; You are one step closer, To becoming the hero- Of the untold.   Green as it is; Blue are the skies! Plain as it will be; True and forever lies.   It’s an oasis, they said; If you know where to be- It’s all gold, gold and gold.   Will I ever come back- In this evergreen grass? Will I ever come back- To ride on my father’s back? Will learn to fly- Through the golden eagles eye? Will I lead myself again- Constantly to suffer in pain?   This land! Oh this land! Such a barren, wasteful land! Those who know the deal ahead- Can stay away from being dead! But the unlucky, like me- They are unlucky enough- Just to be there! Lucky they will be- If they escaped far, far away!

  Arrhythmia- Taking me down. Depression stalking me to- Never ending paths, Never ending ways, How come it’s me? How do I find myself? How do I talk to myself? How it all goes in vein? How come it’s always me?   Arrhythmia- Stalking me to shower, Taking me to flower- Garden full bees, Garden full of trees, Garden full of me!   How can I see, If I’m not me? It’s in me! Insanity!   Call the doctor- I cannot breath. Breath, breath, breath! Arrhythmia, arrhythmia- Arrhythmia is stalking me, I’m feeling free, I’m feeling free!

  My love for you- Forever young. I still feel for you- Before I go numb.   This world we made, In my heart. Without you in this place, Has fallen apart. I’m forever lost, And not myself. You’re gone so long, And never coming back!   There’s no magic word- To make it all undo. I just rewind all the pictures- Before we part into two. I can’t bury it away, It’s just memories- That still remain.   So carry me away!

    All my past, full of gold;   Now I stand old.   Now I seek, seek for-   The story that’s untold.     My story, is nothing new; I fight and fight, until it’s blue. My story, mortal enough to believe, My reality, full of cynicism, I dare not repeat.     What’s there to lose- If I ponder in the dark?     I walk into the storm, The terrain of pain, Pain that beats me, Pain, that I must endure.     For sure- There’s light at the end.     I’m here, in front of my truth. Now is the time I chose. But I feel lost, lost again! In front of eternity, I fail again!